Stress

Went to Amanda's church on Saturday...
Joevy and i suppose to go to jj after youth...
but then...
i failed to go... T.T
i wanted to shopping although i am out of $...
window shopping la i mean.. no $.. what to do?
I just wanted to take a deep breath...
i wanted to have a rest...
i wanted to have a walk...
I don't feel like wanted to continue my work...

It was really stress... STRESS... u know? Really STRESS man...
i hate these kind of life...
i love kids...
i love kid.. because i love to play with kids... Not to teach kids...
Especially when u r talking in front... they looked at u with a blur face..
u ask them do they understand ? ... normally they will answered YES...
but...when u asked them to repeat what did u said just now...
they also answered u YES...
Hey.. what's going on???!!!
cannot understand English... well... i speak in Malay... but they still show u that kind of BLUR face...
what's that???! Hey.. am i talking with the wall...???!!
No...I am NOT....!!!
i really cant stand with these kind of life man....
But i got no choice...
Stress...?
what can i do?
I have to accept it also...
this is my choice...
i have to ACCEPT it anyway...

Now only i realize that $$ is not easy to earn by myself...
I wont simply waste my $$ anymore...