I am confident

有了男朋友的你...
我真的有不喜欢到你的...不是因为你喜欢我男朋友而不喜欢你...
而是你有了男朋友为什么还跟我男朋友说那些那么暧昧的话?
你这样我真的会不喜欢你...
有了男朋友的女生应该这样跟其他男子说的吗??
就算真的梦到...那又怎样??
有了男朋友就不应该这样跟其他男子说!!
我吃醋...我承认...
可是...你真的有过分到啊....
什么梦啊???屁话...就算真的梦到...那又怎样??
你有了男朋友啊...
而且你梦到的对象是有了女朋友的男生...
你有了你自己的男朋友你就应该对他专一..不是??
你不应该那样跟我的男朋友说的啊...
那只是你的梦而已啊...又不是现实生活...
他是我的男朋友...是我的...不是你的....
难道你不觉得你过分了吗???
如果你男朋友知道你这样他会怎么想??
还说什么差点的??什么嘛...
有爽到?? 留着跟你男朋友说好吗?
只是你自己在爽罢了不是?
你喜欢说什么我管不着..可是请你不要跟我男朋友说好吗?
我真的会不喜欢...
陈凯旌是我的....你应该不会不知道吧??我们遇见过不是??
你所谓的差点也只是在梦里...这是事实...你一定要接受...

*15*..
我不能够阻止你去喜欢我男朋友...
你有权利喜欢他...
可是我不希望你误会他...
他对谁都很好的...尤其是女生...
所以他会对你好也不出奇...
请你不要误会他对你的好...
他对你和对其他女性是一样的...
所以请不要误会他....
你可以喜欢他...
你真的可以喜欢他...
可是请你不要骚扰他...好吗??
你可以以朋友的关系跟他继续联络...
因为你们确实是朋友...这个我得接受...
可是...朋友是有极限的...不是?
朋友...应该怎样不应该怎样你应该很清楚吧??
那个梦的话题...已经超出朋友关系的话题了...不是么?
请你以后别酱了...好吗?
我真的不想讨厌你...也不要讨厌你...
如果你真的有男朋友的话..请你对他专一点吧...
男朋友是要来疼爱的...同时也要尊重他...好好珍惜他...懂吗?

还有...我想让你知道...
我对我们之间的爱情很有信心...
你这样是改变不了什么的...
更不会影响我们之间的感情....
你这样只会提醒我...要我更关心我男朋友..
要更疼他..更爱他...
谢谢你...=）

我说了这么多...其实我只是想发泄而已...
我知道我这样说可能会伤到你的...
如果真的伤到你了我愿意向你道歉...对不起..
现在的我真的没有讨厌你的...
就..有不喜欢啦...不要让我讨厌你好吗??
如果你只是单纯的喜欢我的男朋友...我可以接受的...真的
因为我知道..爱一个人...是不在我们的掌控之中的...


宝贝...
我可是100%的相信你的...
我根本没有怀疑过你...傻瓜...
只是偶尔吃吃醋罢了...
爱你哦^^

Promise

Thank you...
I wont hurt u again darling...
I'm sorry...
and Thanks for your forgiveness...

I wont Repeat the same thing again...
And of course i wont hurt again...
Promised...
I love u...
I'll work hard to achieved my target..
Your best girlfriend... I will work hard for it...

Fish

我真的不懂怎么形容...
真的鱼到... 鸵鸟酱啊....

Arghhh................................

Stress

Went to Amanda's church on Saturday...
Joevy and i suppose to go to jj after youth...
but then...
i failed to go... T.T
i wanted to shopping although i am out of $...
window shopping la i mean.. no $.. what to do?
I just wanted to take a deep breath...
i wanted to have a rest...
i wanted to have a walk...
I don't feel like wanted to continue my work...

It was really stress... STRESS... u know? Really STRESS man...
i hate these kind of life...
i love kids...
i love kid.. because i love to play with kids... Not to teach kids...
Especially when u r talking in front... they looked at u with a blur face..
u ask them do they understand ? ... normally they will answered YES...
but...when u asked them to repeat what did u said just now...
they also answered u YES...
Hey.. what's going on???!!!
cannot understand English... well... i speak in Malay... but they still show u that kind of BLUR face...
what's that???! Hey.. am i talking with the wall...???!!
No...I am NOT....!!!
i really cant stand with these kind of life man....
But i got no choice...
Stress...?
what can i do?
I have to accept it also...
this is my choice...
i have to ACCEPT it anyway...

Now only i realize that $$ is not easy to earn by myself...
I wont simply waste my $$ anymore...

2nd month..Be with you

I was so exited actually...
Myself also dunno why... haha
I cannot sleep.... Oh god...
i was damn tired and damn sleepy actually...
BUT i cant sleep for the whole night...
i slept at 5am i guess...
and i woke up at 5.45am...
i sms with my dear early in the morning..
i know he dont want me to do that...
but thats one of my wish...
i wish to sms him every morning... before he go to school...
But he dont allowed me to do that... T.T
He want me to sleep more...
Thanks darling...
I must listen to him... because he is my boyfriend...
I'm learning to be a better girlfriend...

Our 2nd month...
I went to meet him in the evening... about 4pm i think..
i gave a water bottle and a pack of ROCKY to him... that's a pair of water bottle actually...

i keep one for myself... and gave one to him...
i love both of the bottle because of the "never give up" that written on the bottle...
i don't want both us to give up in many ways...
Example... in our relationship... this is the most important one...
in his studies... in our life...in many many ways.. Please don't give up...
and my friends and family too...
please never give up in every way...

Night time... went to yam cha... with Raymond... wh... amanda... airen... and my dear...
haha...
I'm so sorry... To amanda and Airen...
But i know both of u will understand my situation right?
haha... thanks...
love u guys ya...


Finally my mum knew...
she knew that my baby Anders and i...
But... She dont know both of us are in a relationship i guess...
she said something that hurt me... T.T
Do u guys know what she said?
haha... its SECRET...
lol...
Its really hurt me...
But its okay...
i will work hard for it...

I have to
Work hard to slim down...
Work hard to be more pretty..
Work hard to be a better girlfriend...
Work hard to love my darling more...
WORK hard to let my darling love me more...
Work hard to maintain our relationship..
Work hard to treat my parent better..
I have to work hard in many many ways...
Work hard to achieve all my targets...
i wanna to be a BETTER person in year 2010...

Grandmother

外婆在2009年3月12日离开了我...
最疼我..最宠我的人...离开了我...
说真的...其实到现在我都还不怎么可以接受这事实...
可是这就是事实...我没有选择...也不能够不接受...

前几天...2010年1月10日...婆婆离开了我...
在我一两岁的时候照顾我的人...也离开了我...
不到365天 失去两个婆婆...
我..已经...没有机会再叫一声..婆婆了...
This is what we call LIFE... We have to face it... although its hard to face it...

宝贝..谢谢你的体谅...和的陪伴...
有你的安慰..真的让我比较好过...谢谢

外婆..婆婆..我真的很想念你们...
希望你们在天堂过得很好...
你们在天上一定要保佑我们一切顺顺利利...健健康康....

what course am i suppose to take?

what course am i suppose to take?
mass communication?? or computer programmer?
any suggestion??
Mass communication..advertising? i like it actually.. but... is it hard to find a higher salary job in my future??
Computer programmer... I don't really know computer stuff AT ALL...
in my mind.. computer = internet... i use my computer only when internet...
If i take computer programmer... it will be very very tough for me.. i think...
what course should i take????


I am working at smart readers while waiting for spm results...
i started my work on 2nd January...
I suppose to be the teacher's assistant actually...
but i am the one who teaching those kids everyday... ==
i love kids... but i really beh tahan few of them... they are really.......... Haiz...

Tired..

Stress....

Stress...

Baby Anders...I love u... Don't worry my dear... We will be fine soon...

Joevy... take good care of yourself...

Amanda...Xiao bei... i miss u girls... Enjoy ya.. in your college life...

Sheron...I need your help...

1st day

我开工了..^^
嘻嘻。。。
这份工是为了配合我宝贝而选的...
为了配合他上课的时间...
然后我们可以一起吃午餐...
见面的时间..次数...也会增加...
感情也会变好对吧??嘻嘻...希望吧...

为了宝贝...
我做了很多妈妈不赞同的决定...
我错了吗???
其实我觉得我没错...
为了自己爱的人...包括家人...我宝贝...朋友...我觉得我的决定没没有错...
我的决定...对大家都好..不是么??

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宝贝...
你说你feel不到我对你的爱...
我想告诉你...我真的很爱很爱你...
连一秒都不想失去你...你知道吗??
对你的爱...真的无法用字句来形容...就..真的很爱很爱....

可是...宝贝...
我知道你为了我..时常感到不开心...到底怎么了??
我求你..宝贝..我求你...告诉我我怎么让你不开心了好吗???
我真的很想知道哦宝贝...
知道了才能改啊...不是??
我真的很想维持我们这段感情....因为我真的很爱很爱你...

宝贝..无论结果如何...我想让你知道...我真的不希望没有你...
没有你的日子我要怎么过??我真的不知道...也不想知道...
是你让我感到幸福..感到快乐的....不要把它带走好吗??
我们一起努力挽回这段感情好不好??
我知道你是爱我的....
宝贝..不要丢下我好吗???
我不会轻易放弃爱你的...宝贝..请告诉我..你也是...

Happy New Year... 2010^^

I really love u my dear...
I'll think for u before i made any decision..

Anyway.. thanks for your call at 00.00am to wish me happy new Year...
Yea.. U Really touched my heart...
I decide to call u too.. but.. u called me 1st.. haha... thanks
love u..


happy new year to everybody...
all the best in Year 2010 ya...