I am ms Lonely

I think i need some friends in college...
I couldn't stand anymore...
Its enough for me.. I hate loneliness...
I don't want to walk to college alone everyday...
I don't want to go to the library alone...
I don't want to walk back to my hostel alone!
Having lunch alone!
Everything alone alone alone...
What kind of college life is this??!!!
Actually I am so damn afraid of loneliness!!
I am afraid of darkness too..
Afraid of something not right happens to me!!
It happened ONCE last week...
Its more than enough to scare me a hard time!!

I admit I am very timid!!
So.. I think I really need some friends in college...

惊喜

宝贝回了马六甲..明天下午才会回来=(
真的很闷...很无聊..很想他...

中午...和小贝到爱人家去玩baby...
真的好可爱哦...
之后小贝回了..
就回家咯...
宝贝电话没电...陪不到他信息..=(

傍晚..约爱人出来跑步..
两个傻婆...跑到脸红红..臭臭汗味..
遇到Eunice..一起去喝茶..Vicky again..
不久Eunice也回了..
有只剩下我们这两个傻婆..
信息打电话..找了很多人..不是不在不得空就是懒惰出..
两个可悲的女生..在小贩中心呆了很久..
吃了晚餐...
突然收到sy的信息..她说她要出来找我们...开心到..
3个女生..聊了一个臭男人很久...
爱人突然心血来潮想见..yz..
于是..我们就去找他咯..
他们二人在月光下漫步...
我和sy呢就在车里偷看他们..很没礼貌吧..嘻嘻..
我们开心就好..
到头来...什么都看不到...因为实在太暗了啦...=(

在偷看他们时..宝贝突然打来..问我在干嘛..
我就一五一十的告诉宝贝我在哪里在干嘛咯..
我突然想起便问他你电话不是没电吗?
你在哪里？
他没回答我的问题..
接着告诉我说她有个惊喜要给我...要不要知道是什么惊喜..
(我很紧张因为他被他们发现我们在偷看他们..)
之后回答宝贝要要要...快说...什么惊喜？
之后宝贝还问我sy车什么车牌...
我还很blur很紧张的答宝贝不懂5610还是5106啦..做么？
之后就看到宝贝的车在我们车前面了..
我不管三七二十一的跑到宝贝车旁打开他的车门问他为什么会在这里的?
我的泪水已经在眼里打滚了..
宝贝:问我...你很想我不是？所以我出现啦..
我: 你为什么会在这里？你不是在hometown吗？
宝贝: 回来给你惊喜啊..开心吗？
抱着他..说..很开心..谢谢宝贝..
... ... ...

之后...重色轻友的我抛弃了她们..
对不起..我知道你们会明白的...爱你们...谢谢



Lastly but not least..
Gambateh to sy and good luck to my AiRen...
Muacks....

幸福的晚餐

星期五晚上..和平时一样..喝茶..
可是我和小贝会迟些到..一样都去陪男朋友.. =)
她和她男朋友的一周年.. sweet
我呢..就和我宝贝去吃晚餐..
宝贝带我去吃鱼..
叫菜吃饭的那种...
还是宝贝的妈妈打电话去帮我们叫菜的呢...
我们执教两样菜..怕吃不完..
宝贝的妈妈还问我们要不要再叫多一样哦..
幸亏没有再叫..不然肚子真的会爆掉...
突然发现宝贝真的很细心...
除了夹菜给我..
宝贝还帮我把鱼的骨头都挑出来吹凉了点才喂我吃...*sweet*
蒸鱼真的很大条...
都吃得很饱很饱..
谢谢宝贝这幸福的一餐..

第二天早上..宝贝要回hometown =(
星期日下午才回来... =(

Recall back the 1st night I am in the hostel..

I was so sad actually...
I leave home...
I am lonely...
I miss my home very much..
i miss my buddies in bch and of course my Darling too =(
I feel like crying when i am in the hostel ALONE...

Luckily my roommate r my secondary classmate...

I received a msg from my mum..Darling n also my buddies..
Thank you very much for the caring...
I cry when i read it...
= mum want u to be strong & brave to face your next stage of college life away from home. i"ll miss u so much but i have to let go my hand as u must stand on your own feet, u can do it girl, have a good night sleep.. Grandma will bless u always, gambateh... =
Crying again T.T

i miss my grandma again...
How r u poh?
I really miss u much =(
How r u doing??

My Darling miss me too...

Thursday night

Darling : 我们4天没见面了...
me : 嗯..宝贝...我好想你...
Darling hug me & said : 跟你在一起真的很舒服...我爱你宝贝.. =)
. . .
. . .

Friday celebrating akasi's belated birthday party =)
paiseh akasi...

0830 breakfast with grandfather n buddies.. jy akasi n edo..
0930 grandfather send us to Rawang ktm station
1120 Reached Subang Jaya Station..
1140 Sunway.. Amp square.. K-Lunch..
1545 TGV cinema.. Twilight saga-Eclipse
1800 Waiting for Auntie to fetch us back..
while waiting... sushi king... =)
n went to brought akasi birthday cake...

reach country homes at 2030+
because of the traffic jam..
then straight away go yam cha...

received darling call at 2200++
he told me that he drank a lot in his friends birthday party..
he feel like vomiting..
omg.. it make me worry like hell man...
then.. amanda send me there..
when i reach there...
他牵着我的手向寿星女喊道..
我女朋友跟你说生日快乐... =)
then he hug me and tell me that he never drunk actually..
he said he lie on me because he wanted to see me..
he drank a little only..
But he is blur...
He hug me n kiss me in front of everybody beside the road..
n he told me that he love me... more than one time...

then he fetch me n jy home..
thank you to jy for accompanying me =)

Reach home at 2300+-..


Saturday

never see Darling for the WHOLE day... =(
Nothing special about this day...


Sunday..

wake up early in the morning..
Darling come n fetch me...
then fetch jy n joevy too..
We r going to school for the singing competition..
I mean my ex school.. smktd..
Hosea presenting on that day...
He perform well..
He played piano(right here waiting) in front of all the audience, teachers & judgers..
He's so damn HANDSOME man..
I don't know how to describe how he looks like when he's playing piano on the stage ..

Anyway..There's only one man inside my heart..
Anders Tan Khai Jim is the ONLY ONE..
I will love him as much as i can...
I promise.. I will..

I failed myself again...

I only got 30 marks out of 40 for my ME test.... =(

I got back my QS results yesterday...

I though i will fail in this subject becuse of the TIME..

The time is limited..

I got not enough time to finish all the question...

There is 4 question...But i only finish up 2 and a half question ONLY.. =(

But.... I got the 2nd highest in my class...

I was so shock...

I am happy of course... But actually i am not satisfy with it...

I want a better marks...

anyway... I will work hard for it...

I had just finish my English presentation...
I was so damn super nervous actually...
By the way.. my performance unaffected by it.. =)
Luckily i didn't stuck when i am speaking in front....haha
I got 28/35..
Its around my level i think...
i think i am satisfy with it....